I Don’t Want This Reincarnation
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chapter-156
The black ground was stepped on under the pure white bare feet. Elohim, who walked forward through the cloudy smoke, raised his head and looked around leisurely.
A barren place where no life grew. The sky surrounded by darkness didn’t hold a single light and the smoke that filled his eyes was suffocating him.
Nevertheless, Elohim didn’t stop and continued to move forward. As he approached the edge of the ground and the cliff, he opened his mouth with a sad expression.
“You can’t do this, kid.”
The opponent, who stood at the edge of the cliff and looked down, slowly raised his head. The sound of waves crashing against the rocks echoed.“You’re overdoing it.”
“Overdoing?”
Cheon Sa-yeon, who spoke sarcastically at Elohim’s words, took his eyes off the sea as black as ink and looked back. A bright light was emanating from Elohim’s body, standing in the middle of a dark and gloomy space.
“You are worrying for nothing.”
“Umm…”
Elohim, who faced Cheon Sa-yeon, touched his lips with a troubled smile.
“You look pretty bad.”“Is that possible?”
He shrugged his shoulders, pretending not to care about Cheon Sa-yeon, but dark circles were thickly under his eyes and there was indescribable fatigue in his voice. (천사연이 아닌 척 어깨를 으쓱였지만)
“You only sleep when you meet me.”
“And I wonder how much longer you say that.” (그래 봤자 뭐 얼마나 된다고 그러시는지)
Cheon Sa-yeon said something else different as he responded with dryness, waving his hand.
“What about Han Yi-gyeol?”
“Of course, he is doing well.”
Knowing that he wasn’t asking that, Elohim responded softly, pretending not to know. At the same time, the ground shook slightly and cracked in several directions.
“Is that so?”
Cheon Sa-yeon, who laughed in vain, tapped the cracked ground with his shoes.
“He’s doing well after leaving the house?”
“You think I’m lying.”
Elohim, who had been staring at Cheon Sa-yeon for a while, blinked slowly.
“For Han Yi-gyeol, your side probably wasn’t home.”
“……”
“I am rather curious. Why did you misunderstand that?”
The earthquake sound gradually grew louder. As the ground shook and cracked, Cheon Sa-yeon’s state became more and more unstable.
“The room where Han Yi-gyeol stayed was… the safest place to choose in that situation.”
Cheon Sa-yeon’s response to Elohim’s question seemed to be truly incomprehensible.
“In addition to food, clothing, and shelter, I also attached useful ones so that he could use them appropriately.”
The waves got even rougher. The debris of the cliff cracked by the earthquake fell and was thrown into the black water.
“Why am I misunderstanding that?”
Red earrings glistened under Cheon Sa-yeon’s dark hair, who spoke in a sharp voice.
Kugugung!
Except near the cliff where Elohim and Cheon Sa-yeon were standing, all the ground gradually collapsed and was consumed by darkness.
The dream was coming to an end sooner than expected. Calling Elohim into his dream itself consumed a lot of energy, but the SS-rank was able to maintain it for about an hour.
However, the current Cheon Sa-yeon wasn’t in such a good condition that it couldn’t last less than 20 minutes.
“Hey. There are many things you’ve missed, but let me tell you two things…”
The black seawater soared from behind Cheon Sa-yeon’s back.
“Han Yi-gyeol didn’t trust you more than I thought.”
Kkigigigigik—
The strange sound of the iron being distorted resounded from above the sky.
“It cannot be a ‘home’ by itself.”
At those words, Cheon Sa-yeon’s face, who had barely maintained expressionless, was horribly distorted.
“No matter how many times you call me, the answer I can give you is the same. You know that, kid.”
“……”
“I fully understand your concern about Han Yi-gyeol, but even then, he won’t open the door to this place. You need to give up.”
At the end of those words, the black waves engulfed Cheon Sa-yeon like an open-mouthed angler. The ground on which Elohim stood was also shattered and plunged into darkness.
Although his body was falling, Elohim was still calm. Just like when he was standing on the ground, he was standing upright in an empty space where there was nothing and slowly closed his eyes.
And when he woke up again, the dream was already over.
“…will he be okay?”
Another person who was watching Elohim noticed that he had woken up and started talking to him.
“I don’t know if he can stand the next fight.”
At the other person’s concerns, Elohim smiled as he bent the corners of his eyebrows and responded affectionately.
“He can do it.”
“He looks more unstable than we expected.”
“Yeah. Cheon Sa-yeon, that child has always exceeded our expectations.”
Elohim got up from his seat and looked at the man. His face, strikingly similar to his own, was contorted with anxiety.
“So you have to believe him.”
“……”
The man, who had made eye contact with Elohim for a moment, immediately laid his half-raised upper body back and said.
“Find Kwon Se-hyun. Now he’s going up to the second floor to avoid Ha Tae-heon. In front of the 17A-a bookshelf.”
“I got it.”
Elohim gently patted the back of his white hand with affection and left the room.
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As he was told, he went up to the second floor and moved to the 17A-a bookshelf then saw Han Yi-gyeol’s back wearing a white blouse.
“Se-hyun-ah.”
Han Yi-gyeol, who looked around the study blankly, turned around in surprise at Elohim’s call.
“You seem to like this place. Seeing you come here often.”
“Nope. Not really… I’m not very familiar with books.”
“Even so, you might like it enough. Because there is no reason for liking.”
Han Yi-gyeol smiled bitterly as if his words touched something.
“I have something to tell you, El.”
“Take it easy.”
“There’s a… problem.”
* * *
Today Ha Tae-heon had to leave this place and return to Korea.
Last night, I hesitated with a terrible feeling because I couldn’t spit out the words that I would remain.
“To Ha Tae-heon-ssi…”
“You couldn’t tell him.”
“Yes.”
Elohim didn’t react at all. He seemed to have expected me to fail from the start.
“So I would like to ask you a favour.”
“Well. I don’t think it’s a good choice.”
“…I haven’t said anything yet?”
“I will know even if I don’t listen.”
“……”
I felt like I became a troublemaker. I touched the nape of my neck in awkwardness.
“The situation is a little, um. It’s getting weird. I have to talk to Ha Tae-heon-ssi myself. Definitely.”
“It can be dangerous.”
“It’s fine.”
I didn’t think Ha Tae-heon would attack me, but it didn’t matter if he did. I just hoped that my words didn’t hurt him.
“After all, it’s something I did.”
“Se-hyun-ah.”
“I’m sorry. To make you worry.”
“Don’t do that.”
Elohim grabbed my face with a gentle hand and lifted it up.
“I understand you’re blaming yourself, but you don’t have to push yourself any further than that.”
“Do you mean me?”
I deliberately looked down and pretended not to know. But Elohim didn’t stop and continued to smile softly.
“It’s the same for everyone who is hesitant to do things that are less likely to succeed.”
“It’s true that I wasn’t confident, but more than that.”
“Right. You must be afraid of the hard-earned trust of Ha Tae-heon you built will change.”
I felt a tingling sensation in my stomach as if I had been stabbed by something sharp and closed my mouth in silence.
“The collision is already planned, Se-hyun-ah.” (충돌은 이미 예정되어 있단다)
“……”
“The reason I gave you the opportunity to speak in person was to at least to choose when to accept it and to prepare yourself.”
“My indecisive behaviour has harmed Ha Tae-heon-ssi.”
“A collision always damages both sides.”
“Rather…”
The regret I had been doing since last night ran through my head.
“But seriously… I want you to think about it.”
As Ha Tae-heon’s voice passed through my ear, a strong pain spread from my heart to the whole body.
“I should have told him firmly on the first day to go back. I couldn’t do that.”
“Oh, my. You’re doing it again. Don’t push yourself too hard.”
Elohim tightened his grab on my shoulder.
“Just as you are responsible for choosing to stay here, the child will also be responsible for following you here. Even if you regret the days gone by, it won’t help you in the current situation.”
“…thank you.”
I was very grateful for his consideration of comforting and supporting me when I was depressed, but the subdued mood didn’t change. Still, it was a little easier to smile.
Elohim comforted me a couple times as if he understood my condition.
“You still have a little time left, so get organized and come down. I will be waiting with Ha Tae-heon.”
“All right.”
Elohim, who smiled after me, turned around. Then his white hair swayed lightly and the fresh scent of the forest passed through the tip of my nose.
I looked at Elohim as he left the study with neat steps and turned my gaze away. Unlike the outside where the warm sun was shining, it was slightly dark here and it felt more comfortable.
“Even so, you might like it enough. Because there is no reason for liking.”
Elohim’s advice kept wandering around in the corner of my heart. I lowered my head in frustration and took a deep breath.
I never imagined that Ha Tae-heon would have such feelings for me. Of course, I knew that his attitude towards me had changed since the Gangnam incident, but I didn’t expect it would have gone that far.
Maybe Ha Tae-heon left Korea and continued to check his feelings for me until now. And he finally came to a conclusion.
If I had entered the body of someone other than Han Yi-gyeol, would he have noticed it faster? For example… a woman.
‘…no, it’s not.’
As Ha Tae-heon said, gender didn’t matter now. The problem was that I didn’t dare to accept that feeling.
If I refused, I would never be as close to Ha Tae-heon as I was now. That was a warning.
For betraying the request not to leave, if we met again later and sincerely apologized, he might forgive me.
But rejecting emotions… there would be no turning back. Others might think differently, but at least I did.
Even contacting Ha Tae-heon once would make me ponder over and over again. It wouldn’t be easy to do that, even if there was a business need to do.
“……”
He and I had different feelings even when we were together. Ha Tae-heon knew it too, so I thought he kept expressing it to me while we were together. Even though the situation had changed, if it was okay, he wanted to stay by my side.
I pressed my hands down on both eyes as I felt the constant headache.
As Elohim said, the collision had already been decided and now I had to choose.
And I and Ha Tae-heon would also be responsible for that choice.
I opened my eyes and walked slowly.
T/N :
Wwwwww poor Sa-yeon. That’s how mess up he is after Yi-gyeol left :’)
In the next week, we will see him confront(?) Tae-heon probably lol
For the , Tae-heon will make a move again, showing his aggressiveness wwwww
You know who is the other one that was talking with Elohim if you read the spoiler or profile page. I won’t attach his picture if his name hasn’t mentioned yet in the series.
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