I Should Have Just Died
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During the last week of waiting for the king to accept his request for an audience, Seidrick made all the preparations. He opened up the Cambridge family cemetery, prepared for Kendrick’s reburial, and pulled out the clothes he loved to wear during his lifetime. It was intended to hold a funeral again in an informal manner.

“Mother, please prepare it well.”

Juliana nodded her head with a face full of tears.

“……Alyssa too.”

Seidrick pressed down on his fedora hat and climbed onto his carriage.

“Looks like my brother is finally coming home, Mother.”

Ophelia wrapped her arms around Juliana’s shoulder. Transparent tears welled up in his younger sister’s eyes as she caressed the shaking shoulders. As for Ophelia, she will soon marry. She cared the most for Kendrick’s return before she left this mansion. It was complicated in many ways.

And Alyssa came out of the room late. It was after Seidrick had left.

It was decided that it would help the three of them pass their time. It was apparent that if Alyssa were involved, they wouldn’t share the whole story.

As a result, all she saw was Seidrick’s back riding in the carriage. Just like it was at the wedding on that day three years ago.

‘Now is the day to leave.’

Returning Kendrick, Alyssa seemed to be able to leave the place without hesitation. She thought her last homework at Cambridge was returning Kendrick…

Others did even her homework.

‘I really didn’t do anything.’

Alyssa laughed softly.

She realized again that she was of no help to Cambridge.

Alyssa’s steps slowly slowed down. She did nothing, but Cambridge did too much for her.

Even her husband, who had never shown his face once, was protecting Alyssa.

It was something she had never been through before. It was a relaxing feeling, like swimming in the warm amniotic fluid in a mother’s womb. She wants to stay there forever.

But she knows that she shouldn’t be.

Alyssa slowly stepped back.

Sasha stared at her master with a sad face. It’s not that she doesn’t know why Alyssa always backs away and runs away, but now that some time has passed, Sasha thought Alyssa might want to approach people more.

Alyssa grew up in a small affectionless environment.

Her family never held the small child in their arms. They may have abused, shunned, and imprisoned young Alyssa, but they never shared their warmth. So she was afraid of being rejected by them.

If they throw her away, she will be crushed.

All of Alyssa’s courage was used when she came here early in the marriage. That alone was all she could do, and Cambridge at the time could not afford to accept Alissa. As a result, Alyssa was ruined from within.

Sasha’s eyes could see it…

It was when Sasha clenched her teeth and bowed her head.

“Alyssa!”

Ophelia flew like a butterfly and hugged Alyssa.

“……My brother is coming back! Alyssa, my brother. He’s coming back. I think I can get married with ease. The best wedding present!”

Ophelia wept. Alyssa, who was stepping back, was unwittingly pulled out and hugged by her younger sister-in-law. Alyssa was drawn out from the darkness that had dominated her into the light.

“That’s a relief, Ophelia.”

“Of course! I really like it! Alyssa has also been through a lot in your heart during that time. Now the other relatives in Cambridge won’t bother Alyssa either.”

But the dead Kendrick won’t come back, Ophelia.

Alyssa swallowed her words.

Julianna smiled softly, perhaps knowing her heart.

“Shouldn’t the living person live? No matter how sad someone’s death is, it is bound to be forgotten. Seidrick has already taken Kendrick’s place. No one’s going to discuss Kendrick’s death. The reason to think of separating you from the royal family has returned. Just like we did.”

Alyssa bit her lip.

Had she felt Alyssa’s darkness? These two hugging people made Alyssa cry too. She was weeping as she buried her face in Ophelia’s shoulder.

“Seidrick said he is taking good care of you. I guess he was thinking of you without knowing it.”

“I’m fine…….”

“There’s no way. Even you, who lived in that festering place, wouldn’t be fooled.”

“Alyssa, you have to be happy now. No pain whatsoever.”

Alyssa’s hands trembled. Does she deserve it? If she got divorced and left, she would live a quiet life and die. That was what she thought was the perfect end of the royal family. Alyssa was still in the royal shadow, and she received a royal education.

The queen must have been trying to make Alyssa live as a servant of the royal family.

The fact that she had used Alyssa casually was proof of that, and the things she had studied so far were another proof.

Alyssa received the same education as Cruno, knowingly and unknowingly. The Queen wouldn’t have thought she would dare betray them, and Alyssa had to take on this and that on behalf of the Queen and Cruno. That’s why she should become Criminal, and she could dream of a new world. Even though she knew it was arrogance to discuss the new world because of the royal family who made the country this way.

She thought of it countless times.

What should a king do? What is the right country? What can be done?

As expected, the arrogant Avery.

Do you deserve to be happy?

Ophelia smelled of sunlight. It was an enviable smell that made her cry.

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