I’ll Become a Villainess That Will Go Down in History
chapter-408

It wasn’t Max’s fault. I felt he was a really adorable and angelic little brother.

And yet, I wondered what this misty feeling was…

I explored the true nature of my feelings while being his playmate.

I had felt this feeling before with Alicia-chan…. It wasn’t love, but it was jealousy.

I would turn into a bad sister to be jealous of such a little child.

As I slowly stroked Max’s head, I suddenly remembered about the Charm Magic.

If I kept thinking like this, would I unknowingly use Charm Magic again?

I really didn’t think I was using Charm Magic. I was just unconsciously using it to protect myself…I was such an idiot, wasn’t I?

I wanted to be loved by Duke, even if I had to use magic.

Although the person I wanted to love me the most didn’t love me back. If that was the case, then the Charm Magic would have been meaningless.

I couldn’t help but laugh.

“Max, I’m sorry. I remembered something I had to do.”

Saying this in a slightly weak voice, I put Max on the enclosed bed and left.

There was no place for me in this house anymore. But that was okay.

I would never be coming back to this house again.

I walked to the warehouse where I used to sneak into when I was a child. I opened the door which made a creaking sound.

It had not been used for a while, I thought. I wondered if I was the only one who used this place.

I opened the door and stepped into the small warehouse.

It was covered in dust, but it looked the same as it had in the past.

Torn books, unused dishes, cheap jewelry I had no idea why they were here, even music boxes that no longer made any sound.

It was a place full of junk. But when I was still a little girl, I thought everything here was a treasure.

“This brings back memories!”

An unexpected voice leaked out of me.

I closed the door completely, making noise again. I looked up at the ceiling and saw a light bulb dangling from it, as if it were about to fall.

Thanks to the light coming in through the square window that existed high on the wall, there was no need to turn on the lights yet.

…I hoped this place would stay this way forever.

I spotted something small and shiny on a dusty shelf.

Oh, this glass….

It was just a piece of glass, but it was something special to me.

The first time I used light magic, the window in my room shattered. The magic was so strong that the window glass couldn’t withstand it….

Fortunately, no one was injured.

As I gently touched the shards of glass, I remembered everything that had happened.

I have inconvenienced so many people in my life. The most important one was Alicia-chan.

I realized that I had caused trouble, but I felt that I would do the same thing again even if I were given another chance.

That was the best I could do at that time. I felt like I would lose to her if I didn’t push for my own righteousness…. I was never able to beat Alicia-chan from the very beginning.

If I had to say something that could beat her, it would be my magic power.

I scoffed at my own stupidity with an involuntary pout.

“I want to create a peaceful world without violence. …But It’s easy to just say it.”

I really wanted to create a world where everyone could smile.

But the reality was too harsh. Even when I learned of the existence of the impoverished village, I didn’t have the courage to go to that place.

I could go there now. But five years ago, I was not ready for the responsibility of being a “Saint”. I was just afraid of the impoverished village.

I wanted to help them someday, but before that “someday” came, Alicia-chan solved everything.

I really couldn’t compete with her in any way.

Equality, peace, smiles, a world without violence… I thought in my own way to realize these things, but I was too far away from reality. But maybe I was just too blind to the reality.

I couldn’t believe I was being taught by a girl five years younger than myself….

I could see why Duke would fall in love with her.

I wish I could have been like her.