It's Not Easy to Be a Man After Travelling to the Future (WN)
chapter-1462-30041322

1462 The Real Self

For a short while, Ling Lan continued to tap open videos and watch them. They were all videos of daily life made by her younger brother. Some had something to do with her and some didn't.

However, no matter what it was, her dad, mom and younger brother would always mention Ling Lan in the videos. They sincerely hoped that Ling Lan could get better and return home.

Ling Lan quickly scrolled through everything. Suddenly, a filename caught her eye.

It was named "I'm finally useful as well."

The videos before this were all named with the numbers automatically given to the file. This sudden appearance of this name made Ling Lan open it with curiosity.

The first frame of the video was an acceptance letter to a university. Her younger brother's voice echoed from outside of the camera frame, "Sis, do you see it. I got accepted into university."

His long fingers turned the camera away from the acceptance letter to his smiling face along with his acceptance letter beside his head.

"Medical department of B university. The top ranked medical academy in the entire country. Isn't your little brother amazing? Sis, you have to remember to praise me later, okay?"

Ling Lan suddenly remembered that the year she left the world was the year when her younger brother was taking his entrance exams.

She seemed to have never asked her brother what school he wanted to get into. Every time they met, he would only call her 'sis' and then sit quietly on the side while listening to her and letting their parents speak. Quiet and scanty with words was Ling Lan's impression of her younger brother. However, in the videos, he was so lively…

Ling Lan had thought that this younger brother of hers, who she would not see more than twice in a year, would have little to no feelings for her. They had never had any deep talks with each other. Ling Lan felt it was already enough that her younger brother didn't look down on her for being a burden to the entire family so she didn't dare to hope for more. However, now, Ling Lan seemed to not be so certain of her own thoughts.

Her younger brother originally smiled brightly, but it slowly became forced. He put his head down and rubbed his eyes with his hands. Then, he raised his head as his expression returned to the radiant one from before, but his eyes were still red. There were still tears on the corner of his eyes that hadn't been wiped off.

"That's why, sis, you have to keep holding on. Wait seven years and I will make you better." Her younger brother's expression was stern. It was as though Ling Lan was sitting on the end of the video camera.

Ling Lan was shocked for a moment. Her younger brother from her previous life was actually like Li Shiyu. He walked the path of becoming a doctor for her.

"Where have they been all this time?" Ling Lan raised her head and looked at Li Shiyu coldly.

"Oh? You finally want to know?" Li Shiyu leaned against the wall with his arms crossed in front of his chest as he spoke plainly.

Ling Lan closed her eyes to calm herself down. Her emotions were fluctuating too much. Usually, when her emotions were fluctuating much, she would make the wrong judgments.

When she opened them again, Ling Lan's eyes returned to the calmness she once had. She looked down towards the cell phone. This time, she chose to look at the pictures and not the videos.

Li Shiyu's expression changed slightly. He didn't think that the intuition of a girl on the brink of death was this good. She managed to choose the direction where she could possibly find the answer.

The pictures were mostly named with their dates. Ling Lan picked a few by their dates. Most of them were family photos. She quickly scrolled down and saw 'Contract Page 1'. She quickly tapped it open.

It was a copy of a job contract. It was a land survey contract outside of the country. If it was what she thought it was supposed to be, this was related to her father. Ling Lan remembered that her father was a land surveyor, and when she saw her father's signature on 'Contract Page 6', it solidified her thought.

"Did my parents leave the country while my younger brother is studying at B university?" asked Ling Lan.

"The salary outside of the country is relatively high. They asked me about your condition. I told them that even if it could be cured, the recovery afterwards would still cost a fortune. It was a bottomless pit. They had also thought about it for a long time before deciding to go out of the country to earn more money," Li Shiyu said calmly. "As for your younger brother, his first three years were indeed spent at B university, but now he's not there… He was too good in his studies so he was sent to Country M to further his studies."

"That's good." Ling Lan finally felt relieved when he knew her family was doing well without her. As for meeting them… she was no longer the Ling Lan from the previous life, so she wasn't tied down by her past life. She didn't care about it anymore.

"That's why they haven't been here to see you. Wait a few more years and you'll be able to see them. Don't misunderstand them anymore." Li Shiyu's voice echoed softly.

Ling Lan's eyes narrowed instantly. Her hands were clenched so tightly that the cell phone in her hand made a few cracking sounds.

She slowly put her head down and gazed upon the screen of the cell phone once again. She chose to use time to organize all the files. The most recent videos and pictures were from three years ago.

Ling Lan's fingers trembled slightly as she tapped on the latest video.

"Sis, summer vacation is over. It's time for me to return to B university. Not long after, mom and dad will also go to another country to work. We're all working hard, so you have to work hard too. Sis, mom and dad said you are our family's toughest and most sensible child. They said if I even learned 30% from your tenacity, I would have been an army commander in this life. I don't know how much I could learn from you right now, but I will definitely acquire the spot to go to Country M to fully develop myself. When that happens, I will definitely make a video to tell you." Her younger brother held in his fist while facing the camera. It was to cheer her on and also possibly to make his promise.

"Lanlan, we took your brother to the train station. We also have to prepare to go to the airport. In the future, we can only come back on your birthday to see you. Your brother taught us how to video chat. Even if we're in another country, we'll still be able to video chat with you. Lanlan, no matter how far apart we are, you will always be our most treasured and loved daughter." Her mother's kind smiling face appeared in the video. Her father was sitting on the side. When he saw the camera looking his way, he moved his head away slightly. However, after her mother used her elbow to nudge him, her father could only face the camera. The serious look on his face slowly melted into a smile that was deemed to be warm by him. He then nodded his head at the camera.

It was just like how it was in the past. Her father in her past life never liked to show his feelings. He wasn't like her other father, Ling Xiao, who liked to show his love for his daughter and wouldn't let her neglect him. He would even get jealous of her mother if the two of them got too close. Although Ling Lan didn't know whether Ling Xiao was jealous of her mother or of her.

Although they had different ways of expressing their love for her, the love both of her fathers had for her were genuine.

Ling Lan had tears form in the corner of her eyes as they slowly trickled down her face.

From quietly sobbing, to crying loudly in the end.

"Ling Lan, what's wrong? Ling Lan, don't cry. Don't cry. Crying is bad for your body." Ling Lan's loud crying stunned Luo Chao and Han Xuya.

Li Shiyu's expression darkened. He knew that he couldn't fool Ling Lan.

"Let her cry. Crying will be better for her," Li Shiyu stopped Luo Chao and Han Xuya from trying to comfort her.

Han Xuya and Luo Chao looked at Li Shiyu. They didn't understand why explaining the misunderstanding would cause Ling Lan to be this sad if it was a happy thing.

Li Shiyu sighed. These three girls were around the same age. Compared to the intelligent Ling Lan, his two nurses were too naive.

"Returning to this time period is to make me see who is the one that is actually cold and heartless. It's you, Ling Lan! Not your parents nor your brother, they were always there cheering you on, but you were too selfish to realize it. From the beginning and to the very end, the most selfish person was you. The person you loved the most was also you. You escaped from the possible pain you could have felt and chose to love yourself in the way that benefits yourself the most. It was always you and not others. No matter if it was the previous life or this life, they are all the same. The so-called dominance, so-called freedom, are all to cater to your selfishness. Ling Lan, that your real self."