Nanomancer Reborn - I've Become A Snow Girl?
chapter-1273

Flawed. It's all flawed. The humans are flawed. They couldn't accept any form of blessings the Gods grant them.

Her wish, Chaos' wish. It was all but a dream that wasn't meant to come true. After all, the ones they were trying to make a better world for couldn't imagine a time without conflict.

If no harm comes to them, they'll find ways to harm others or themselves.

"They are fundamentally a race that cannot live without the concept of harm." Anima muttered as the dark circles under her eyes only grew larger.

She was tired mentally. She had scoured through millions of records detailing how the race functioned through a myriad of scenarios and eras only for it all to end the same. Destruction at their own hand.

If the God's guide them, the result would only be them rebelling and ignoring the consequences.

How did she know? Her own society that she created from the start. She gave them everything they asked for and yet the end result was still all the same.

She was tired.

How could the same humans that revered her, the same ones that called her name with endless love lay curses upon her as though she was the source of all their misfortune. Everything they asked for that would make them happy she granted them.

Everything! And yet they curse her as the Evil God. The witch of sin and temptation. Some claimed they were prisoners of her making, born to suffer for her entertainment.

Many claimed that she did not feel love or treasure them at all. Do they not see everything she had done for them?

Retracting her consciousness from the orb, Anima looked at the orb coldly.

"It's flawed."

Why is every cycle like this? No matter what she tried nor what conditions she put them in, none of it changed the outcome.

Was such a dream an impossibility in the end? Even for godly being such as themselves?

She was tired.

There was no more hope for this cycle that she had created herself. The humans upon this realm escaped to the world of the digital and fought against one another. No more do they look towards her in hope. Every time she appears, only disgust and repulsion could be felt.

Looking at the orb, Anima's eyes grew cold. A strange feeling surfaced in her heart.

'Should I just crush them while they watch? Let them know their place.'

Her breathing quickened as the twisted thought buried deep into her mind. As her hand slowly reached out, she thought about their regret seeing their world crumble, their begging and their despair. For those that did not treasure what they had before and blamed her for every tragedy.

If they blamed her for the tragedies, then she'll make it a reality. She'll make them watch as everything they knew and held dear crumbled before them.

Just as her finger brushed against the surface of the orb, she grabbed her own wrist and stopped herself.

Taking several deep breaths, she gritted her teeth and sat down on her bed.

"This is wrong. They're just humans. Chaos already told me that their race could not function without conflict and the will to seek more. If I take that away they'll just cease to function like I did here. It's not their fault it's mine, mine for creating a flawed reality for them." Anima muttered to herself while looking at the orb pitifully.

If she had been more careful she wouldn't need to do what she's about to do. She wouldn't need to erase their life. As the person who created them, there was a sting in her heart. If she could help it, she wouldn't kill them.

But simply letting them continue down this path of destruction was cruel. She'll end them, end them in one go. So they don't even know what's happening. A single blinding light and everything is reduced to nothingness. That is her pity towards them, her mercy.

Snapping her fingers, a cage appeared around the orb as a flash of light erased the cycle from existence.

Sitting in silence, Anima sighed deeply before looking towards the door.

"Ah right, I should go help with the real garden project…"

Standing up, Anima made her way to the testing labs while Shiro watched in silence.

"I think I'm starting to see the full picture now." Shiro sighed. She realised the source of Anima's torment.

She gained a human heart.

The time she spent as a human was to put it bluntly, a mistake if Chaos wanted Anima to stay as a god.

But now that she's learned the human heart and gotten corrupted by certain souls, what's began couldn't be stopped anymore.

Anima could no longer watch as an unaffiliated third party without feeling empathy for the humans even if they curse her. It'll drive her to do things she never thought of before and what she just witnessed was proof of that.

As Anima made her way back to the lab, she saw Chaos working on some new cycles with Aria and couldn't help but furrow her brows.

"You should've let me know if we're starting earlier." Anima sighed and scratched her head.

"We did though? You should get some rest sis." Aria asked with concern in her voice.

Seeing Anima being reduced to this state was worrying especially since she seemed to be more effected with each passing day.

"It's fine. I don't need to rest some more. I just want to see what's at the end of this project." Anima shook her head while looking at Chaos who was observing her silently.

After staying silent, Chaos opened her mouth.

"Just observe for today. I want you to see what's been affecting you." Chaos ordered as Anima widened her eyes.

"Bu-!"

"No buts. Just listen to me. Spend the time today to watch me and your sister work and I want you to think about what's changed for you." Chaos shook her head.

With Chaos ordering her to just observe, Anima had no choice but to nod her head despite her own thoughts.

'If I'm not helping them, they won't even give the individual a chance…' Anima thought while biting her nails.

Watching Chaos using the new system she developed with Anima to shred away countless cycles without even giving them a chance caused pain to surge within Anima's heart. Their cruel indifference and cutthroat choice making.

She couldn't accept this type of experiment.

Just as she was thinking of standing up to stop them, Chaos glared at her direction.

"Just sit still and watch. Anima, I'm not asking you for much. Just observe and reflect on yourself for now."

With Chaos reinforcing her stance, Anima clenched her fist but remained seated.

As time passed, Anima could only watch as they continued to shred away at millions of cycles without care. Once all of the experiments for the day had finished, Chaos instructed Aria to leave the two of them alone for now.

Nodding her head hesitantly, Aria glanced towards Anima's direction one last time before leaving the room.

"Do you know why I told you to just watch?" Chaos asked as she sat next to Anima.

"Because you noticed the changes in me?"

"Partially. It's because you're too attached to each cycle." Chaos shook her head.

Waving her hand, she created a new cycle nonchalantly and before it could even begin, she crushed it with her hand.

Seeing this, Anima widened her eyes in shock as she didn't even give them a chance nor did she hesitate.

"You're becoming too attached with each and every cycle we do. If you burden yourself with accepting each cycle you'll suffer. As higher beings that can create this on a whim, it's our role not to become overly attached. We must treat each cycle with fairness and honesty." Chaos instructed as Anima gritted her teeth.

"But what about their potential?! I've seen it happen, the individuals who seek to change the world! If we merely look at the world from afar without caring about the details, none of the cycles will be a success!" Anima lashed out as Chaos stared at her silently and shook her head.

"We need to give them a chance! A chance to prove themselves. Some will flourish in slightly different environments. If we can just-"

"Do you hear yourself Anima?" Chaos cut her off as Anima seemed more and more deranged as time passed.

"Is this not you becoming overly attached to them? They are lesser beings Anima. We are not like them, you need to remember that. They are inherently flawed. If it is impossible to create a world for these beings then that's of no concern to us." Chaos tried to explain but something snapped within Anima.

Their lives, their goals and their hopes. Even kind people like Aaron was of no concern to higher beings. They are flawed and thus Chaos held no expectation. All of this is to satisfy her own curiosity.

"I see… They are flawed." Anima muttered, feeling devoid of strength.

"Yes, do you understand?" Chaos furrowed her brows as Anima nodded her head slowly.

"No, I understand enough." Anima sighed.

She was tired.

"Let us try one last experiment then…" Anima stood up and burst into laughter.

"What?"

Staring at Anima's back, there was a bad feeling in Chaos' heart. As though something terrible was about to happen.