The Abandoned Empress
chapter-192

My heart ached because I could feel how much he had been shocked and hurt as a child.

“Well, I could understand your mother was warm and kind to you because she was your mother, but even the empress was unusually kind to you. Even though the late emperor had never smiled at me, he took time out to spend time together with you and your mother when she entered the palace. When nobody around me loved me, you were loved by everyone.”

“… ”

“As time went on, I felt more and more alienated. Whenever the two dukes who pressed me hard to do better praised you, when the late emperor was happy about your performance even though he never praised me, I really tried harder, clenching my teeth… but the results were always the same. ”

He smiled bitterly, staring into the air, then said, “That’s why I hated you…”

“… ”

“I was also envious of you.”

I felt heartbroken to hear that.

It’s what happened when I was a child, and I don’t remember. Was it the reason why he hated me so much in the past?

Of course, it doesn’t mean that I will forgive or forgive what he did to me before my return, but I felt I could understand him a little better. The old him must have tried harder than me. Back then I knocked myself over to be the perfect empress. If what he said was true, the old him might have continued to compare himself with me.

I felt as if my heavy heart was a bit lighter. When I breathed out as if to throw out something stuck in my chest, he also took a deep breath and continued in a much more comfortable voice than before, “So, I decided that someday I would certainly be acknowledged and loved by the emperor. Then the emperor, who was my only blood, died like this. ”

“Sorry… ”

“I would be mad at you if you again said sorry. Don’t you remember that the High Priest said the time Vita gave to the emperor was used up?”

“… ”

“Thanks for telling me. If you hadn’t told me, I would have misunderstood the late emperor a lot.”

“You’re welcome, Your Majesty. I feel it’s fortunate that I can tell you about how he genuinely felt and thought about you.”

With his back against the tree, he looked up silently at the sky. As I didn’t want to disturb his thoughts, I just gazed at the sky, too.

The twinkling starlight in the black sky was so beautiful. It is said that when a person dies, he becomes a star. If so, are they shining so brightly because they miss someone left on earth so much?

The moment I exclaimed in amazement at a shooting star, I felt something touching heavily on my shoulder.

Surprised, I looked around.

I found him leaning on my shoulder in no time, with his eyes closed.

When I saw him asleep with a relaxed expression, I had mixed feelings.

How did all this happen? Our relationship was star-crossed from the beginning, and even now.

I longed for his love so much in the past, but I was hated by him. Even though I have won over his heart now, I can’t live with him. This is the essence of my contradictory relationship with him.

I sighed deeply. I pounded my stuffy chest when suddenly something fell on my arm.

What is this? Is it raining in this nice weather?

I looked up, but the sky was clear without any clouds. In all possibility, it won’t rain.

When I looked down, tilting my head, a drop of water fell again. I felt I had to wake him up, so I turned around. Oh no! I saw tears flowing under his thick eyelashes.

“Your Majesty…”

I hurriedly closed my mouth. Teardrops were falling from his eyes, but he smiled as if he were happy instead of being sad or in agony. I was so heartbroken to see it that I also began to cry.

I quickly blinked my blurry eyes. Hesitating for some time, I carefully placed my hand on his shoulder. He would be uncomfortable in this posture.

‘Let me help him have a happy dream.’

I carefully put his head on my lap while trying to not wake him up. Then, I tied up his disheveled hair and wiped his tears. I felt my frozen heart melt away at the warmth of his tears.

I looked at his smiling face for some time before slowly leaning against the tree. I kept blinking my eyes slowly because I felt sleepy. The silver buds that seemed to open slightly seemed to come into my view.

‘Are they blooming now?’

While tilting my head, I closed my eyes unconsciously and fell asleep.

I opened my eyes. When I was tossing and turning my body, rubbing my sleepy eyes, I found myself in a place not familiar to me.

Where am I?

Someone approached me while I was wondering what happened, and bowed deeply.

The badge of the palace affairs office on his chest was clearly visible.

‘Huh? Am I inside the palace now? ‘

I immediately got up from the bed, startled. This time the crest of a roaring golden lion engraved on the carpet caught my eye.

Oh my God!

I asked the maid with a trembling voice, trying hard to open my mouth, “Where am I now?”

“It is His Majesty’s bedroom, Lady Monique.”

Oh My God.

I felt goosebumps.

All kinds of thoughts passed through my mind. My father’s angry face naturally came to my mind, let alone the fierce bickering between the pro-emperor faction and the noble faction over my overnight stay at the Central Palace. It didn’t matter that nothing happened. Anyway, politics was a battle for justification.

“Why am I here?”

“I don’t know. I was ordered by His Excellency to serve you when you woke up.”

“I see. Where is he now?”

“He is in the meeting room.”

“Meeting room?”

The maid bowed deeply to me when I was tilting my head, saying, “Yes, that’s right. I heard that he called the heads of the marquis families last night and spent the night with them.”

“Huh? Did he summon all of them?”

“Yes, I heard so. His Excellency asked to have breakfast with you when you are awake. It’s already late, so you had better hurry up…”

“Oh, I see.”

I stood up with a sigh of relief. As he was with the nobles last night, there was no possibility that any weird rumors about me would spread in the capital.

When I stepped down from the bed, I was bothered by my costume as I was dressed in the same black satin dress, corset, and petticoat.

‘I wonder if he saw my outfit.”

Hiding my blushing face, I washed my face and changed into the clothes the maid gave me. The light water-colored dress fitted me perfectly as it was tailored for my body. I was a little puzzled because it was my first time wearing it, but I went out as the maid was in a hurry.

“It’s been a long time, Lady Monique.”

“Hello, Sir June, Sir Seymour. Long time no see!”

As I left the room, the two knights standing at the door bowed to me. Sir June said with a bright smile, “I was ordered to escort you. Please come with me.”

“Oh, thank you.”

I quietly expressed my gratitude and walked with the two knights.

“Did you have a good sleep last night? It seemed like you were sleeping very well. ”

“Pardon? What do you mean… ? ”

“Well, I happened to be on duty last night, so I have been keeping an eye on you since you arrived at the Central Palace with His Excellency.”

“Oh my…”

Only

Suddenly, his face blushed.

When the emperor died in Vita’s arms, it was only natural for the guards to follow him, the only remaining immediate member of his family.

But even though I understood it, I felt suddenly embarrassed to hear that he had seen everything last night. In addition, Sir June and Sir Seymour were close to me.

“I’ve never seen the emperor sleep so comfortably. I am not sure if you know it, but the emperor can’t sleep because of insomnia. But yesterday he had a sound sleep.

So, our opinion was divided over whether to wake up the emperor or not because it was cold at night.”

“…I see.”

When I slowly nodded, Sir Jeanne continued in a very satisfied tone, “So, after a long discussion, we approached the emperor to wake him up, but…”

“…”